Shankii

2011-12-25T12:55:00.001-08:00

emotions all kept inside locked up with a key, which belongs to you...

2011-12-20T02:27:00.000-08:00

Grace :)

2011-11-21T15:54:00.001-08:00

i just wish i never knew you, it's better.

Shankari

2011-11-11T10:33:00.000-08:00

i have lost this battle. i thought i did have a chance but i was wrong.

it's only the matter of the heart whn it comes to love right... not about gender...

i would not have felt like this, if only things were right at that time..

first one left..

second one, suddenly appear..

third one, accepted me and then left me, with the word guilty...

to the dearest third one,

i've loved you wif all my heart. I've only treated you in the most sweetest way. i've

only done things just for you, no matter how hard i learned and get it done for you.

i could only promise you, that i'll be there. those sleepy nights, were sleepless to me, basically just to stay awake wif you and talk nonsense. i would just do anthing for you.. i could just give you everything.. i don't know why it's you but it's you .

i understood, why it can't be work out..

It's hard to be like this.

it' just not meant not to be..

afterall, i know it's hard for you to be like this..

you never wanted to be in this way..

the fault is not yours but mine..

very sowie, from the bottom of my heart...

i know you've done it long time but i've decided to let go of you, to where you belong....

it's hard but i'm sure to let go now and forever...

cause in the end i would want to see you wif your groom, walking down that alley, wif that big smile in your face..

i definetely would be happy for the both of you..

i treasure this friendship more than anything..

i hope you too would...

PEACE

2011-11-10T08:58:00.000-08:00

I have been doing this for very long, in silence.

Afterall, it's never gonna work out, i knew it.

but why did i raise that question?

Why why why ?

Why did you also want to know?

It's my fault, i should not have raise that question...

I choose to love you in silence for in silence I find no rejection.

wish

2011-11-10T08:52:00.001-08:00

I wish I could turn back time and stop it not on the day we met but on the day we really got along. Why? Nothing really. I just miss what it feels like to be so happy when you are with me.

Stujsayt

2011-11-10T08:47:00.000-08:00

I’m not asking you to stay for the rest of my life, stay as long as you want. No why’s, no how’s, no but’s, no promises.JUST STAY.:) It’s more than enough.

life

2011-11-10T08:39:00.001-08:00

I never intended to be the most important person in your life, that’s just too much to ask. But I do hope that I’d cross your mind and you’d smile thinking that I touched your life in a special way.

treasured

2011-11-06T06:18:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAYYY GRACEEE !!

I miss youuu .

; This memory is mine, but that moment was ours.

-to that someone speacial

this is life.

2011-11-02T10:37:00.000-07:00

your eyes were fake and love is a waste to talk about it now .

Deepavali

2011-10-25T10:46:00.001-07:00

I'd like to see your name appear on my hp,

but for the fact ''what's the point?''

A simple msg how are you?

Is all in the head, if you care you would text not only on

special day or anything

but randomly.

But still, I stupidly would be happy cause atleast

i know you're out there doing good.

Goodnights. :)

1st photo 13092011

2011-10-24T11:03:00.000-07:00

Well this is rani, one person i can never forget . Many people may come into my life, but i don't know why they can't be like her. Noone can replace her. Hais . Though things might be shaky now. I just keep hoping day by day that everything will be okay, like the normal us. I miss the old you very much. :(

This is the only photo i have of us taken together. Like duh, a candid one but it's the first ever photo after 2yrs. Memorable day forever. Staying gold in my heart for a lifetime. We may have quarrel & fight alot of time, but still somehow we are in contact again. Hoping that we will not lose in contact again.

I can confirm chop chop 100%, i'll be there for you.

Hurts

2011-10-23T19:22:00.000-07:00

The days are empty, full with imaginations.
|All the words are bottle up in my diary.
Memories are blinking like the stars above.
Silence and i miss your presence.
You're not yourself and soon i won't be.
It's best for me to give up like you do,
but i won't. :)
& i'll hold on when you want to.

10/10/2011

2011-10-22T22:18:00.000-07:00

A kiss .

A day, i'll never forget .

When i picture everything together now,

it seems like you had lie .

You fake it, so good that i fell for it .

May be the word love was not there for us and things became like this .

But i after very long i felt love, it was just right beside me,

i mean very close to me.

Those days were like heaven, birds were flying everywhere,

everything just went happily,

the smile on my face was brighter than the sun.

The answer i got was yes, and i was blinded wif you in my eyes .

Anywhere i go, it's just you .

Your warmth arms gave me the secured feeling that

as long as you're around,

i need not fear again, the only thing i had to do was to be strong .

All i did was trusting your words like a love poem :)

Now, it shakes me.

Everything ended wif the word guilty letting tears roll down my cheeks.

I apologise and you did.

to forget you .

2011-10-22T22:08:00.000-07:00

May the weeks pass as slow as my heart beats for you.

One side of love, a silent one .

Your smile which brought me miles away, i'm lost now.

My words are, like the cords you never play.

Miss you a little less everyday.

Let me get a trace of you, instead of a face.

And your name will no longer be fame in me .

Somehow, now you're gone.

I've forgotten about you.

2010-04-17T07:19:00.000-07:00

I'm back again finally!!:DD

Well miss euu blog lehh!!!:(

Month's thre was lyke Fish lorr!!

Small small thing also kena scolding!!

NO vulgarities allowed!!

Everything also CANNNOT!!

So0o0o irritating lorrr!!!

Staff down ther See people!!

It's was an experience fer mii &&

An experience i'll never forget!!!

ANd never want to be ther again!!!

Der day i step in ther my lyfe was Change, NO friends , NO outside lyfe, NO freedom, NO school!!!!

I was not use to der kind of lyfe down there..

but as days past i get use to0oo it aeady!!

Days there thinking about about der ones i LOVe about how they are out there...I had NO idea..

I only could imagine things && pray fer them!!!

Imagination was my WORLD down there!!!

NOw it's going to0o0o be Different!!!

MY family ok lorr!!

Just have problem sleeping lar!!

i cannot sleep on der bed properly!!!

Father working Now..will be back only on Monday!!

Mother && bro seeeing tv!!

Actaully i'm waiting fer Rani to0oo come online but she hasn't come yet!!

wanting to0o0 call her but scared larr!!

haiya!!!

1 thing before i end my post fer today!!

*WORLD CHANGe PEOPLE CHANGe*

BYE!

2009-10-16T04:49:00.000-07:00

Gerine here posting for her since she can't.
She just left us.
She made us all cried for her.
Esspecially JiaXin.
We seriously miss her alotalot.
I'll try to make her blog alive (:
Takecare.

2009-10-14T21:17:00.000-07:00

I know i suck alot .
byebye :D

2009-10-14T03:36:00.000-07:00

Happy 3month Anniversaryy

2009-10-12T19:40:00.000-07:00

Ello0 ! :D
Just cme bck frm skol!!
EBS paper lyke FCUK!!!!
I dun even knw most of it sial!!!=(
11/2 paper was 1/2hr paper fer mii!!:DDD
i was slping all der wayy till der paper ended!!!:D
25 marks gone lia0o...
Cox i leave blank!!=)
I confirm FAIL!!^.^
Well i hate tis subject alotZzZ
&&
Der tcher all sucks!!!:DDD
&&
I knw i suck alot!!:DDD
SOH HUIMIN THANKS FER MYY BELATED BIRTHDAYY CARD!!!
Bored to death everytyme cmming bck here!!!:(
I wish i culd Fly!!=)
Byee!!:D

2009-10-12T01:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPYY BURFDAE LAO AH MA :D

EllO0!!!:D

EOY have started && todayy was Maths paper 1!!

It was lyke shitt!!:P

Half wayy do aeady i slp liao0o!!!

But 1 thing fer sure is i'm gonna FAIL!!!:DDD

Maths i got no hope aeady!!!=.=''

Lyfe is just so0o0 sucking!!
I wonder am i der real daughter of myy

fcuking father && mother or wat siak!!!??!?!:S

Maybe i'm adopted!!:DDDDD

I'm really happyy tat i'm not staying wif them!!!!

It's lyke WE are in fault && tat bastard is not in fault!!!!:@@

Cheebye parents i have!!! o.0

Euu are der onlyy closest kin i have!!!:DDD

Myy gerfren nowdayys veryy popular liao0o!!:D

I wish she was here wif mii!!!!:( :)

I dun knw whn i will be updating next!!:D

BYee!!

2009-10-11T04:10:00.000-07:00

HelloHelloHello!
Yes! You! Yes! -.-
Tell you something !
This is not Shankari!
This is Her Grandmother !
Guess who??
whowhowho?
Of course is GerineYapJieLing lahhzxc!
You dumb ass !
I've help her post something alr okay?
Byebye!
Baibai!
CheeBye:D

2009-10-07T01:38:00.000-07:00

♥IMissVijayaRanid/oNadarajooLotzZ♥

2009-10-02T20:02:00.000-07:00

ILoveMyMeiMei'sLotzzz

2009-09-26T23:08:00.000-07:00

ELLO!!!
Well lyfe is just so0oo0o boring && it sux alot!!!!:@
I'm missing SashaKattachi!!!

Thank euu fer der letter sasha!!!
It's just weird without her!!!
Miss her nagging @ mii, scolding mii,irritating mii, &&& everything!!!
I want to be wif her ASAP......
It;s going to be hard fer mii!!!
The feeling just sux!!!
Oct9 is comming in 1week tymes!!!
I'm reallyy scared!!!
Dunno wat the judge is gonna say!!!!:S

Oct 1st onwards no more jacket fer mii!!!!

Dunno how am i going to go skol wif out it??!!

I hate myself!!!

Take care ppl!!!

Love Euu all always!!

Byee!!

2009-09-13T04:06:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BURFDAE TO MYY TWIN BRO<333

HAPPY BURFDAE TO MYY AUNTY RANI<333

HAPPY BURFDAE TO ME:

15 liao0o...

Not any younger!!!=(

I Want To Say Too All My Love Ones Tat I Really Love Them Lots!!!

Thanks euu ppl for the wishes!!!

Actualli it's my first year tat i'm celebrating wif out myy sister!!!

Kinda of weird siak!!=)

SashaKattachi euu are a bastard!!!

Mum came && bro!!

They should not have come!!!

Nothing much really happen!!!

Usha akka came bought cake for mii!!

The cake was used for throwing @ ppl && not for eating!!!:D

Thank euu gals for birthday bashing mii &&

I really am clean cox i bath for 3 tymes!!!

The wish i make has come true!!!

I am so0o happy!!!

Misses Popii alot!!

If only i was out from this fcuking place!!!

I am praying && praying!!!

Hoping tat i could get out from here!!!

Yuva rani thanks for the advanced burdaae cake!!!

A big thank euu to all euu gals for making happy && celebratin myy burfdae wif mii!!!

But one person is just not in the picture &&&& it's is Vijaya Rani!!!!

BYEE:D

2009-09-05T03:06:00.000-07:00

BYEE!!! =)

2009-09-04T01:59:00.000-07:00

Sobs! Sobs!=(

Got my report card bck!!!

&&&

The good news is i fail 4 subjects!!!!:D

Maths, Science, Tamil, CPA!!!

Pass 2 onli which is

Englisg && EBS....

Left end of year exam then see how lor!!!

My lao ah ma buy rokok liao0o0o!!!

I happy!!!

Holidays cn smoke liao0o0!!!!=)

But holidays are gonna SUCK...

Cox stay here cn die siak!!!

Sunday my parents visiting my sis!!!!!

I cnnt go!!:D =(

Dunno whether happy or sad that she not wif mee leh??!!!

I'm rojak!!!

Haiya!!!

Stressed leh!!!!

Think &&& think my head want 2oo burst liao0o0o!!!!

Byeee!!

love euu frens!!!!

2009-09-03T01:54:00.000-07:00

Yo!!!=)

I go Skol disturb renuka like idiot lyke that!!!

I hate her la cox...

She make my new shoe dirty!!:@

Actualli she's a veryy nice gal!!!

A fren whom i don't which to forget

will always be in my heart!!!

she has nagged me alot to changed!!!

i think i did abit!!!:D

My mummy oso veryy good...

She wuld bring for me && renuka breakfast!!

Well she is sarenya!!!

Sowie mummy&& renuka if i nver bring breakfast...

Cox here got nothing!!!!=(

I'm happyy mummy bringing for me && renuka bread 2mrw!!!

Renuka D/O Pandean && Sarenya D/O Ramasamy>>

I LOVE EUU FRENS CHOO MUCH!!!!

I have started saving $$$....

to buy things!!!!=)

Must buyy donald duck saving for that Now!!!!

But dunno whether she'll will lyke it or not!!!

That's all 4 today!!!

Byeee!!

2009-09-02T00:45:00.000-07:00

Life is reallyy complicated!!!

I just dunno what to do liao0o0!!!

What of my fire of hopes run down??!!!

Those scars on my hand.....

Did i stop cutting my hand cox i wanted 2 stop && let it heal oRrR>>>

Stop cox scared that if continuse i wuld go galz home!!!

What if continue after i go back home???!!!

If onlyy i was dead....

Just praying that my sis would be alrite in there!!

(missin euu sasha kattachi)=(

Just praying that prEcious akka would be save whre eva she is!!!

[missing eUu Vijaya rani]=(

11sept09>>hoping for the best for sasha!!!

God when will all this shitt END???!!!!

I WANT IT TO COME TO A FULLSTOP!!!

Byee!!

2009-08-28T05:46:00.000-07:00

Ello0o0o!!!

well skol has been ok lately!!!

gtg liaoo byee!!!

i hate that bastard<<<<

>>>>
plws get that into ur fcuking head!!!!!

byee bastard!!!

hates euuUuUu!!!!

go & die!!!

i pray for euu to mati faster!!!

2009-08-26T03:34:00.000-07:00

ello0o0o0!!!
well days have been okay!!!
i'm still normal!!!
just tired of everithing liao!!!
have stop cutting my hand aeady!!
six days liaoo never cut!!!
six months of cutting have been a great help!!
thanks 2 MY PRECIOUS AKKA!!
i just LURB her alots!!!
nowdays wun't be contacting her liaooo0o0!!!
just thinks for the tyme being it's bttr 4 us not
to keep in contact!!!
i want to msg, chat,send comment to her!!!
but just have to tahan!!!
i missing her liao0o!!
let's see how long cn i tahan!!
wants her to get well soon!!
wants to see her soon!!
wants say sowie to her!!!
bobo loves popii!!!
got to go liao0o!
volunteer cme aeady!!!
byeee!!!

2009-08-22T03:53:00.000-07:00

HmmM.....

2dae woke up 7.30am!!!

ThEn did ntg else!!!

It's weird without my sis la!!!

her bed is there but no1 is there!!!

Well i just cnnt digest der fact sia!!!

I'm waiting 4 my parents or herself to tell mii!!!

Why can't they just tell mii???

but i aeady noe but i want hear from them!!!

How long are they planning 2 hide from mii???!

haiya!!!

I just cnnt sit still in one place sia!!

if nt i'll keep thinking abt it!!!

Well i did slp after taking panadol!!!

was shiok atleast....

@ tat moment i culd be free & nt think abt anything..

My heart really drop out ...

@ tat moment when i was sure abt tat!!!

I just want to knw who & why!!!!

I just want someone to lend mii there shoulder..

I just want my sis 2 be alryte there!!!

I just want my sis not do anything bodoh!!!

I am just a useless sista..

I onli culd see her crying !!!

Hope tat she will be out be4 my birthday!!!

I'm just cho0 fcuking stress!!!

Dunno wat to do aready!!!

Confusesd!!!

Angry!!!

Sad!!

Hapii!!

Everithing is going through inside mii!!

Popii also dunno how la!!!

hope she's alrite!!!

She has been busy lately!!

Take care popii!!

I love euu always!!!

cry alot sia

2009-08-21T01:57:00.000-07:00

hmm!!
never go skol 2dae!!
cox going court!!!
got ready & waited 4 officer 2 cme...
but in the end the police van was waiting 4 us!!!
WYF!!i gt realli shocked sia!!
my sis aeady cry la!!
i wanted 2 cry but hv 2 be strong 4 my sis!!
she was scared tat she will end in gals hme!!
was being brought in2 1 cell!!was soo00 cold sia!!
my sis was crying by doing tat she make angri siak!!
well in the court the judge told tat my sis will be send there!!
i wuld here in melrose 4 2mths...
16october09!will be review again!!
my sis just cry on my shoulder!!i was useless!!
i culd nt do anything 2 help her!!
tears just kip rolling down my cheek!!
on my burfdae oso she wuld nt be wif mii!!
hw are the 3weeks gonna passed without her!!!
all tis tymes we have been 2gether but nw???
seperated!!
she just cnt stay there i knw her mre!!
& der lyf there 4 her will sux!!
how i wish i was there wif her!!
i'm naughtier thn her but why did they put her there???
if it's her fault thn!!
i gt ntg 2 say sia!!!
3weeks 4 her is gonna be lyk hell 4 her!!!
just hope tat she wuld be alrite!!
just missing her alot aready!!!
byee!!

2009-08-18T03:27:00.000-07:00

hello00o!!

stupid tcher!!

send mii bck hme cox i wear slipper 2 skol!!

cheebye!!

give mii 2 time warning onli thn want 2 send mii bck hme!!

fcuk them siak!!!!

renuka was oso send bck hmes!!!:D

she cut her hand!!!

i told der tcher!!

WTF Sia!!

tell tat i influence her!!!

hates everi1 lots sia!!!!

**must buy panadol aeady!!

2 slp!!

my next aim!!!

i just wanna be gone frm tis world sial!!!

yea!!

gt rokok!!

*malboro hot*

>my fav!!=)

just going wif der flow!!

whre eva der flow leads mii...

i'll fllow it!!

byee!!!

i hate euu ppl!!

hate mii bck kay??!!

fail

2009-08-15T04:08:00.000-07:00

hmmm...
bored as usual!!
wanna smoke sia!!
but i dun't have!!=(
yea!gt 2 eat macdonald 4 breakfast!!!:D
after soo long eating it sia!!
thanks 2 der volunters who sponsers 4 us!!=)
parents tcher meeting on friday was like shit sial!!
fail 4 subject including tamil...
they say tat if animore complain they take action!!
if come to worse kena suspension!!!
until october onli can wear cardigan 2 skol!!!=(
they give 2mths 4 mii hand 2 heal!!
which is fcuking short!!
gt ntg 2 say abt staying as it realli sux!!!
kol my dad after sooooo0000 long sia!!
sis say dad wanted 2 tok 2mii!!
they are ok wif taking us bck...
but der problems lies wif miii&my officers!!!
i have 2 prove them tat i'm willing to go bck!!
& show them i'm alrite!!
dun think it will be ok whn i go bck hme!!
i knw tat thre will be problems!!
my parents wun't accept they way i am!!
haiya!!!~.~

byee!!ending here 4 nw!!

2009-08-13T03:21:00.000-07:00

ello!!long time no post!!=(

my blog is dead!!!

alot thing has happen lor!!!

just wonder why are things happening lyke tis!???

wondering why am i lyke tis???

i am useless!!!

officer cme & tell mii tat if der hme dun't want mii animre

cox of my nonsense.....i will have 2 go 2oo galz hme!!!

will nt do anithing bodoh inside here!!!but will do smokin!!

other thn tat NO!!!

well skol has been boring lately!!

fail my math test 9/40!!=)=(

sci test8/30=(=)

tamil i dunno!!??

eng pass!!:D

ebs=???

gonna be 1mth knwin rani akka!!=D

it's fast la!!but..................................

NTG!!

2MRW gt parent tcher meeting!!!WTF!!

case worker going!!!

dunno wat my tcher goin 2 say abt mii!!!

i knw tat thre will onli be complaints nt complimentS!!

byeee!!

BORED

2009-08-07T23:33:00.005-07:00

well it's so0o0o0o0 fcuking bored!!!
ntg 2 do!!
woke up @8.20am!!
so0o0o early sial!!!
ate cup noodle!!!
wtf cnt finish it sial!!!
pass half of tat 2 huishi!!
thn realli had ntg 2 do!!
com oso nt on!!
cox alll change password liaoo0!!
nw days cn onli use com frm 4pm 2 7pm!!!
WTH!!!gt 7 gals!!hw 2 share???
cheebye la mz khim!!!!
yesterdae!!
had whn 2 see GerfreN!!=)
waaa wait 4 her veri long siak!!1
but was happy 2 see her la!!:D
thn we bought rokok!!
headed 2 city hall!!
cox gerfren wanted 2 collect her pay!!
we were lyke idiots!!
taking der lift!!frm 5 storey 6 storey all!!
actaulli it was 8 storey!!!
thn waited thre!!
i gave her der keychain which i
wanted 2 give her!!
she lyke it!!:D
it's kol BoBO &PoPi!!
i'm bobo!!=)
she's popi=)
thn we walk frm city hall 2 raffles place!!
thinking tat we culd walk bck 2 bugis!!!!
fcuk!!
she lecture mii until we missed 3 trains i think so0o0o0!!!
but i realli will STOP STEALING!!!I PROMISE!!
thn met her fren babyy gayu!!!
was supossed 2 leave @ 6pm frm bugis!!!
i left @ 6.30!!!
1nce again had 2 go bck 2 tat fcukin HME!!!
evri1 were asking mii why i cme late!!!??
i knw tat monday i'm gonna kena frm MZ KHIM!!!!
2MRW will be der soooo000 boring cox gt ntg 2 do here!!!
tat's all 4 2dae!!!:D
byeee

*****

2009-08-04T07:54:00.000-07:00

class/common test hv started!!
i have left maths & eng!!!
CPA i wuld get a big fat 0..
cox i cheated!!=)
well ntg much 2 post la!!
akka is wroking la!!
veri long hours sial!!
just hope tat she will be alrite!!!
cox of her hip bone..she wuld feel weak!!
BUT she stills works 4 soo long hrs!!
cheebye!
I just want her to Take Care of herself la!!
GD nites!
wanna go see tv liaoo!!
byee!

nothing

2009-08-04T05:12:00.000-07:00

my OFFicer can just FUCk off!!
i culd have cme bck late...
but she told tat she cummin i rush bck!!!
in der ENd she CNNot make it!!!
WTF!!
Got only $3 more 2 pay Mr kannan!!
phew!!
ntg much 2 post about 2dae!!
UnKnOwN GaL ♥ GerSioW
byee=)

*****

2009-08-03T06:37:00.000-07:00

hmmm...
yea!whn 2 skol!!
i didn't even understand a single fcuk sia!!
especially maths & EBS!!
I was just copyiny wateva tcher was tellin mii 2 do!!!
maths test 2mrw!!
i sure fail sial!!
EBS oso!!
just head bck 2 melrose after skol!!=.=
bored as usual!!
gerfren gt sore eyes sial!!
all of a sudden!!WTF!!
was happy 2 hear from her after 2 day MIA...;D
just want her 2 recover asap!!
she's is just wonderful in alot of ways!!
eventhough i hv known her nt soo long!!=)
FCUK>>
my officer cumming 2mrw @ 2.30pm!!!
dunno wat she going say siak!!
grrr!!>.<
hope tat she doesn't ask abt my hand!!!!
i'm totally scared abt tat onli!!!!
Whn Good things happen....
When i go to sleep tonight...
I'll wake up...
As hw i was BeFoRe!...
If Onli I Was a Baby...
life wuld be more easier!!!
having tat innocent face!!
knowin nothin!!!
it's hurts now!!

BoReD

2009-08-02T05:54:00.000-07:00

well....

suddenly i feel it's no longer.....

everiday here is der same!!

sianz aedy siak!!

ntg 2 do der whole day!!

sat & sun is der worse day sial!!!

even i culd see myself rottening!!

hell men!!

all of a sudden i hv been wantin 2 go skol!!

cnt take it aeady siak staying!!!

i rather go skol on sat & sun!!!

i'll be mre happier if tat happen!!

waiting 2 go bck hme liao!!!

must wait 4 sis N level 2 finish first!!

october thn cn!!1=.=

i think soOo>>

has been online but i did send ello!!

WTF..no reply!!

wondering whre der hell she's gone 2oo!!

werk??out??

wateva!!

why do i exist??

4 wat fcuk am i doing here!!???

cheebye!!

just soo wanna go skol la!!

bored 2 death siak!!

rather be @ hme thn here!!!

everi1 here is just wanting 2 go bck hme la!!

tis is wat i think!!

no cigg!!

cnt aedy la!!

must buy!!!

''not easy 2 throw away someone euu love''

melrose suck 2 der core!

byee!!

fucked up!

2009-07-31T05:18:00.000-07:00

well bck 2 posting!
2dae in skol i think i was gd gal!!
did control my anger!!=)
buti realli was angri wif tat B****(sankari)!!!
it boils mii up whneva i see her!!
other thn tat ntg happen!!!
i was suppossed 2 meet gerfren!!
but thn cnt cox rafiza kol my skol>>
they say i gt nothin on!WTF!=(..i was fcuking sad sia!!..
I was realli hopin 2 meet her!!
i save $10..2 buy cigg!!
i fucking want it nw!!!
feeling veri fucked up!!
jux told her 2 take out loves the boyyfwen!!
she told mii dun't tel her wat 2 do!!WTH!!
actualli why did i ask her 2 take out???
wateva la!
but der fact she was nt in der mood & i was oso nt in der mood!!
i'm feelin choo rojak NoW!!
DuNnO la!!

dun't wish 2 lose contact wif gerfren!

if it is meant 2 be thn..

all i can say is another prs whom i love is gone away frm mii!
not everithing & everione last 4 eva!!!
smeday they will leave us!!
it's true!!
i just wanna say
I'm SoRrY GeRfREn!!
hope eu r ok?!!
gonna do wat i loved doin!!!
hand gonna hurt lotz!
byee!!

lyfe suck

2009-07-30T07:05:00.000-07:00

ElLo..
wElL JuSt fInIsHeD ChAnGiNg My bLOgSkIN..
ThAnKs 2 MELISSA TAN ZHENG TING..
sHe hElPED MiI 2 Do...
I ReAlLi lOVe tIs bLOgSkIN cOx mY FaVoUrItE
cOlOuRs r iN Ii!!
if euu FcUkErS dUn't lYKe iT eUU R KinDlY WeLcOMe 2 fcUK oFf!!:D
another prs which realli hate in skol!!!
I HATE SANKARI..TIS GAL FRM SEC5!!
SHE SUCK!!
cox of her DM knws my officer number!!!
nW WaTeVa I dO WiLl bE ToLd 2 mY OfFiCer!!!
WTF:@
tcHerS oSo cNt hAnDlE MiI...
sEnD MiI 2 Her 1 aLwaYS!!!
JUST fcuk off la!!
i'm hoping tat gerfren will gt my msg!in fb!
cox onli PrS i CuLd thInk tAt wIlL tOlONg aKu!!=)
hell!!everi thing abt mii is gtting worse!!
dun wish 2 see DM again!!
my aNgeR I Hv 2 cOntRoL It!!!
if nt I'M DeR 1 PuTtIn mYsElF In TaT PlAcE!!
wHrE I DuN'T WiSh 2 go!!!
is it CrOcOdILe TeArS??
I want 2 b happi lyke last tyme in skol!
nt showing out my unhappy self!!!
just whn wuld i change 2 be a gd gal??
well if my fate is 2 go galz hme thn let it b lor>!!
but 1 thing is MY LOVIES IS BEING LOVED BY MII!!:D

life sux!

2009-07-29T04:01:00.000-07:00

happy birthday cuzzin sis!!
may god bless euu!!
study hard :D
love eu

well everiday in skol suck 4 mii!!!
i just hate them las!!!
life is gtting mre & mre conpliccated nwdays!!!
wonder hw will my future be lyke!!!
WoRsE Or bEtTeR??
just waiting 2 go bck hme liaoo>>
tis yr end then onli cn!!
stayin here longer is gonna be worse!!!
but i realli mux change!!
have 2 stp all my shit doingzz!!
life just sux!!
have no other way 2 see it!!:(
gerfren oso working until 11pm sial!!!
nvr chat wif her soo long aeady sial!!!
miss her las!!
hope tat saturdae cn meet lah!
i just wanna knw tat she's alright!!!
bored!!bored!!
gonna slp early cox ntg 2 do!!
i want thursday 2 cme ASAP!!!
hw i wish tat i slp & nvr wake up again!!!:D
i realli must control my anger wif der tchers cox>>
alot of problems are waiting 4 mii ahead!!
i knw it!!
life is a game!!
alot of things are appearing in2 my head las!!
i'm jux scared!!
wat if go gals hme huh??
As days past..months past it has been gtting worse!!!
wanting everithing 2 end fast!!
just want my oldself back!!
i wanna tok 2 my parents lyke hw i use 2oo!!
cox they r hurt whneva i dun tok 2 them!!!!
they are tryin their best oso 2 improve their releationship
wif mii!!
Just wish i culd turn back der clock!!
wanna cry out loud but cannot!!!
feeling choooo FUCKING stress!!!
byee!!i hate myself!!

2009-07-28T05:30:00.000-07:00

haiya!!!

soo feelin want 2 die!!!

skol tchers all suck sia!!!

i realli must cut down on my green words!!!

i realli did a thing which... i say 2 gerfren i'll stp!!!wtf

i steal again @ skol bookshop!!

well dOnE Is dOnE!!

iF OnLi iCuLd tUrN BcK DeR cLoCk>>

tat will be gr8 sial!!

dun wanna repeat stealing!!

whn will i stp stealing sial??

whn will i stp cuttin my hand???

whn will i be my oldself 1nce again!!???

sowie gerfren dissapoint euu again las!!!=)

they r nw aiming mii sial!!!!WTF!!

I realli hv 2 stp all der nonsence if nt i'm gonna end up in galz hme!!!

i realli am trying 2 change!!!

why can't they see tat???

fcuked up life sial!!!

shuld hv just stayed @ hme!!

byee..

sowie

2009-07-25T02:12:00.000-07:00

wat's up>>
long time no blog las!!
here com gt sort abit la!!
soo cnt blog!!:(
nvrm tis week was gd & bad 4 mii!!:):(
der worse thing which happen 2 mii was kena caught 4 stealin!!
WTF...smemre akka told mii nt 2 do it..yet i did it!!
hw bodoh of mii!!
actaulli jux gave her bad inpression abt mii on tat day itself!!
but lucky they nvr kol police las>>
if nt by nw in galz hme liaoo!!!
phewww...
CPA tcher another sucker!!hate him las>>
he sux 4 eva!!
der tcher's thre sux!!
friday went 2 bugis...
cox 2 see akka...
she was working thre...
working is damn hard sial!!
tiring sia!!haiya!!
went 2 her blk under...smoke & tok lor>>
lepak lor>..
memories of mii & muruthy bro ...
were thre!!!
it's lyke i'm wif him whn i'm wif akka!!
i felt happi...
der onli thing i'm scared wat if we lose contact...
another prs i love is gone away frm mii!!
keeping my fingers crossed!!:D
i jux felt nt going bck 2 melrose sial!!
jux wanted staying wif akka!!!
jux missin muruthy bro..cuzzins....frens!!
evri1 whom i love!!!
am i gttin worse??
i hv no hope!!?
ppl tel mii tis!!!
how i wish i was deaf!!
nt hearing all tis!!
well tat's all 4 2dae!!!
akka(R) take care LOVE YA!!:D
BYEE

AKKA'S& THANGACHI GT WELL SOON LAS

2009-07-19T05:46:00.000-07:00

..... get well soon.....

hmmm....
2dae was another boring dae!!

but had rani akka 2 chat wif!!!

my sis...darsani...akka....oso sick sial!!!

WTF....Gt wElL SoOn....

hw i wish..i'm der 1 gtting sick!!!

walao WONDER why r things lyke tis!!?????

i'm wooried abt rani akka...

cox she nvr go see doctor !!!

i dun care i want

sArAnYa,,rAnI.&dArSAnI

2 gt well soon ASAP...

hw i wish i culd punch der wall till my hand bleeds & hurt!!!

byee...

sucking day

2009-07-18T07:50:00.000-07:00

____FCUKING BORING!!!___

__LiFe Just SuX!!__

___.....ThE eNd...___

ohk..

2009-07-17T08:55:00.000-07:00

heyyy...i'm bck again!!
2dae was fcuking boring!!!
in skol & here!!
3preoids did ntg sial....
i shuld hv went bck hme lor..
went der tcher saw mii coughing!!!
regreting nw!!!
aniwae's did nt meet akka cox she culd nt make it...
gt prayers!!!
well i'm glad tat sangeetha is out frm thre!!
hope tat she will nt contact wif derrr wrong pll!!!
xiao ting was gila 2dae!!
i wanted 2 closed derr toilet door cox..
she & mel was washing toilet>>
puki she spray water @mii sial!!!!
i was wett...
i went in 2 take revenge cox she bully my boifren(mel)
took a pail water pour @ her !!!!:D:D
all of us in the end was wett head2 toe!!
went 2 take towel &headed 2 bath lor...
currently chatting wif akka!!!
actaulli i made her angri sial!!!
but nw Ok aeady!=)
just lurb her lotzz....
gtg liaoo byee

anGrY:@

2009-07-15T06:10:00.000-07:00

hi everi1

i'm back....sowie nvr update!!

kinda of ntg 2 write!!

well 2 dae suck!!

i HATE it....

actalli kinda of my fault!

tcher lend EBS book 2 mii...then i go tear der cover pg

& der next pg>>coz gt his name!!

i wanted it coz i dun't hv!!

cheebye sial>>

nw i need 2 pay bck lors!!!

he make me sit down outside der lap

4 fucking 3 periods!!

but sowie ehk my butt actallii cnt sit down soo long!!!

i when bck 2 class>>he cme after me>>i go field

oso cme field me>>@least he cn lost weight

but nw der conclusion is

i pay him $1 everiday for der next 28days!!

but i wun't do tat las

soo slow

i pay straight $3..

nvr eat oso wun't die!!

i just hope tat we wuld nt lose contact

love ya ranzz sis

tat's all 4 2dae!

2009-07-13T05:41:00.000-07:00

ello!! ting here to help kari to update her blog =D hahas =D
since she say she didnt hv anything to update..so i shall help her talk some cord :x
wellwell u noe she is a damn damn bloody fucking dog tt goes ard barking here and thereLOLS!! hahas =D too bad she is only a monkey..cant be mixed..

owells..dun say bad things abt her liao.ltr she go bck to her bed and cry!! ahahahahas =) anyway she's really good friend tt can make ppl happy all the time.so whenever u are sad do find for her cause i can giv u 100% sure tt she will make u down.

ting -kari: see i so nice to say abt ur good things =) so u better stop ur fucking attitude towards me.oops, just tell ppl tt u are a good fried.LOLS

ps actually those nice things tt i say aint real!! so believe me she is a totally BITCH!! hahas =D dun whack me wor!! =P

sIcK

2009-07-09T20:39:00.000-07:00

well.....2dae never go skolz>>

coz sick>>

on MC!!

fcuk sia!!

cough>> flu>> & sick!!!

yesterdae go see doctor>>

he gave me alot of medicine>

cough syrup>pink & purple tablet>syrup 4 asthma!!1

wat der F***

veri boring staying alone!!!

ntg 2 do sial:@

@least go skol & disturb frens!!

currently eatin kit-kat!!!

short post 4 2dae

coz ntg 2 write!!!

bye>>

ppl out do take care>>:D

frens!!!!

2009-07-06T04:21:00.000-07:00

ello readers!!

veri tired>>

just bck from McyS!!

after soo long seeing my officer!!

was tokin & toking!!!

was happi cn see all der galz!!!

was 15mins late 4 der appointment!!

then ended @4.20>>

actualli cher gt another grp@ 4pm

but she had things 2 tel mii soo ended late!!:D

then wanted 2 go bck

but then waited 4 my sis 2 finish!!

@ 6 finish sial>>so long!!

sat down thre did ntg!!:(

then saw zaza she go toilet i follow her!!

siti oso come out i oso go toilet wif her!!

was soo happi after soo long seeing all of them

i wished tat i could be in der group men!!

ciara soo bodoh!!

don't noe hw 2 open der door oso!!

then 1 of der officer sent us bck 2 melrose!!!

Ciara,Zaza,Shasha,Siti,Hidayah,Diyana,Rozaina,Rani,

i love you galz!!!

i want those days bck wif euu all galz!!!

i will pray 4 euu galz all!!

...hope i culd be strong like euu all galz!!

even thogh wat has occur!!

byee:D

2009-07-05T06:12:00.000-07:00

____________________ntg much 2 post 4 2dae!!!__________________

____________it was sooo boring!!!_________

________just wish 2mrw had skol!!!__________

__________papa(jia ying)she helping mi buy rokok!!wednesday!!yeah!!:D__________

rokok rox!

2009-07-04T05:05:00.000-07:00

mua fav brands!!

ello:)

hope evri1 is fine out thre!!

when 2 library with miss sarah & der galz!!

onli gt 1 boi cme!!

poor thing!!:(

i'm missing rokok lotz nw!!!

waiting 4 skol 2 open bck>>>

cn't wait sial!!!

just wish i culd be 18 nw!!!!

ate macdonald 4 lunch>>>

dinner sux 2 der core lor>>>

i rather eat bread sial!!

nw currently chatting wif RENUKA she IS IRRITATING MI NW!!!

rokok has been helping mii alot sial!!:)

i just want it nw!!!

veri important 2 mii!!!

byeee:(

???!!

2009-07-03T04:40:00.001-07:00

ello everi1...:D

2dae was fun...

did ntg much>>

f*ck sia 2dae whn 2 ask 4 ''C''

der aunty sae cnt sial!!!

coz don't hv I!!!:(
I was soo angry & dissapointed......
gerine was realli deaf sia>>
tok 2 her huh?huh?
is wat she answer!!!

f*uk her la!!
aniwae ntg much lor>>

>byee

2009-07-01T02:01:00.000-07:00

ntg much happens 2dae....

mua sis & renuga is sick!!get well soon galzz>>>

....yesterdae oso gt>>>

everi1 is gtting sick!!!!OmG,..

don't noe wat 2 sae???

don't hw i am feeling!!!!

all i cn sae it just suck la>>>

life is oso sucking>>

everithing around mii is oso sucking!!!

why sial???

i just gt 1 question 2 ask god>>

when will i die??

tis question has been in my head 4 a long tyme!!!!

fcuking off nw>>

coz nid 2 go 4 art theraphy>>>

bye:D

*****

2009-06-30T19:29:00.000-07:00

well nw feeling soo tired...

@ skol had elective module....i was in DJ>>

it was alright i cn sae>>

let's see as day past by...it's a new thing 4 mii!!!

i had learn hairstlyling & video making @ my previous skol!!!

sooo bored cumming 2 skol but if i was @ my hous iwuld hv give reason nt 2 go skol!!!

those days>>hmmm

nw i'm goin 2 skol cause of my contract wif my officer!!!

this domn of mine is gtting very dirty coz no1

is doing housework!!!:) including miii<<

wanting a houseparent soo tat der place will be clean!!!:(

bought ''C'' 2dae.....culd nt by der brand i wanted

coz short of F***ing 20cents!!

was scared 2 bring in..

but i brought in>>i think iwas lucky 2dae:)

i gt voucher frm der hme coz of my SA1 results!!!

i shocked sial!!

nvr thought i will gt it>>

it will be my last tyme!!i'm sure coz nw daes nt sudying!!

just walking in & out of my domn!!

when i see this gal i remember mii of how i was last tyme.....

laughing @everithing eventhough i'm gttin scolded or wat!!!

just gonna go wif der flow...

where eva it's takin me go......

i wil just followed it>>

i nver wanted this life!!!

why did i step in2oo this f***ing world???

sch reopen...

2009-06-29T03:34:00.000-07:00

1st day of skol after a 1 month break!!!

actualli it was not soo fun bcoz need 2 study.....

woke up saw all der small kids rushing 2 go 2 skol.....

dennis soo funni sial>>>

run 4 der bus but in der end>>

had 2 run bck 2 der home bcoz he forget 2 take his wallet!!!!

i was laughing my ass offf>>>

der sight of him just make more angri!!!

renuka started disturbing me!!!

soo f*ucked up men>>

but she's was soo hyper 2 dae!!!

borin lor skol!!!!

whalao go 2 skol H1N1 IS SOO popular menn....

bcoz of tat soo leychey sial>

take temperature all!!!haiyooo>>

nvr goo MCYS 2dae..

don't know why lor>>

i think my officer kena qurantin bcoz of 1 gal!!

fcuk menn>>

!!!sad lor>>

cannot see der galz!!!

ate KFC!! yummy yummy:P

nw feeling soo full eating 1 chicken...

i just feel weird when ever around with my frens!!!

hate it men...

must wear jacket everitime!!!

sometimes feel like takin out but can't!!!!

hmm well i deserve it lor!!!yea 2mrw cn buy ''C''....

BYEE

***HATE PPL READING MUA BLOG***

2009-06-28T04:52:00.000-07:00

skol is gonna reopen!!!
OMG>>
never do my maths hw!!!
actaulli i don't whre my paper is>>
soooo cnt do lor>>
haiyooo 2dae all der kids will be bck frm their hme leaves it's gonna be sooo noisy!!!
no mre quiet:(
life is gtting worse as day past by!!!
just wish tat i culd turn bck der clock!!!
i just wanna be hw i use 2 be last time having tat attitude,character&everithing!!!!
when will all this things put 2 a STOP???
when will i be der same me??
soo F*ucked up!!
wantin 2 see all der res grp galz!!!just waiting 4 2mrw!!

byeee!!

i love gerinee yap jie ling<<3

sian>>

2009-06-27T04:52:00.000-07:00

2dae was soo f*cking boring!!!!!

did nothin here oso>>

everidae stayin here is a torture.....

cnt do anithing as euu which or like!!!

luckily skol gonna reopens tat aleast make me more happi then

staying here!!!!

1 more day 2 skol 2 reopen!!!

***for everithing you have missed,

you have gained something else

and 4 everithing you have gain

you lose something else

it's about der outlook towards life

you either regret or rejoice!!!!

day out

2009-06-26T04:55:00.000-07:00

2 more days 4 skol 2 reopen!!!!!

well 4 2dae..went 2 intercontinental hotel>>

we went there 2 celebrate those birthdays on june

but no1 burdae was on june>>fcuk rite!!

then went thre ate alotz of nuggets & fries!!

i took 3 coke light bck wifout them knowing!!!

took about 10 keropok bck oso!!they nvr see oso>>

watch high skol musical 3 @ threre>>

but in der end it was alrite la>>>

alamak skol nak reopen sial>>:(

i'm happi oso but sad bcoz verin boring go skol!!!!

haiya>>

A Long Day Out!!

2009-06-25T05:00:00.000-07:00

2 dae wake up in der morning...7.30..bath..then get ready & left melrose @8.30...2 see my mum & twin bro......first had 4 break fast was Prata...i ate 1 but then thanx 2 aunty...i ate 2...bcoz my sis & her had nt finished eating finished der thosai>>>then walk walk>>until 12...meeted mum @ tanah merah....reached thre @ 1.15pm>>so eaarly 4 der first tyme sial>>>waited for then 2 arrive ....headed 2 changi airport.....walked arnd & arnd my leg was soo pain:( we went 2 a kopitaim i think>>find a cushion kind of seat...then onli were i & my sis were relieved....

ordered fish & chips & chicken chop....yummy yummy:p....we all shared bcoz we were full by wat we ate in der morning>>i & bro were full then had 1 fries left...i passed 2 him..he passed 2 me bck....i passed 2 him bck ask him 2 eat it>>soo angri lor>>soo lame sia....i was in a wae happi coz he was treating me & my sis:D..but i took all der balance everitime..coz want 2 buy something when skol reopen.....we don't nnoe whre we going>>>when 2 der departure area all 4 ntg bcoz we culd nt find whre der coffee bean was???we were new thre!!!!hahahx....then went 2 burger king instead of coffee bean....sat down...i & bro oso were choosing who shuld ordered der food!!!in der end we both when 2 ordered....all we ordered were medieum fries,coke,onion rings.&hot milo 4 mummy....then had oso 1 onion ring we all were full....soo in der end my ended up eating it>>>

after tat...went 2 mrt took it & my dad sae he was cummin...we met & headed 2 melrose bck....i gave awae my mossaic which i did a few mths ago...it was a table...gave it 2 my dad>>keep it here oso 4 ntg!!!!was soooo f*uckin tired!!!!syaza thank you soo much>>eu noe wat isit 4>>>i was feeling confused>> memories came bck 2 miii>>>rajes uncle>>i miss ya lotss>>wanting 2 see euu asap>>haiya life is being sooo f*ucked up>>>when will i be gone????

super confused>>>>

2009-06-24T06:47:00.000-07:00

hmmm....1nce again my blog is done properly>>thanks 2 gerinee yap jie ling...:) i love euu!!!!mossaic tcher came...put cement on the mossiac we did!!!!everything is done nicely!!!but then i don't know who 2 give it 2ooo??wanted 2 give 2 miss diane or miss rebecca???but don't noe whether 2 give or wat???still thinking abt this lor>>everidae here is sooo sucking!!!even went thre's is programme

2009-06-24T01:53:00.000-07:00

ello....
everi1...my first blog>>>

thanks 4 helping me>>>melissa...gerineee